a rap love affair: DMX’s eternal freedom

The thing that held me close when it came to DMX was his unapologetic humanity. Sure, Big was one of the greatest rap storytellers of all time, without question. Both him and Jay expressed remorse about the life they “left behind” in varying ways. With Nas, his weaving of knowledge was always profound. But with X, he was unabashed in his pain. He let you know that he teetered, chronically, between the light — and the dark, in a way that most rappers in his heyday did not. In fact, in a way that most black men did not. He also managed to do it in such a way that he could never ever be considered “soft”.

But what’s wrong with soft?

It breaks my heart that the wisdom in his music, in his words, the prayerful essence that he gave us regularly, the lyrics he crafted, the peek into his pain over the past 23 years, was not enough. He gave us so much, without apology, fearful and yet he still gave — and we weren’t ever able to help him with the one thing he craved so desperately — peace.

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Change agent. Soca & rap junkie. BK Girl in Queens. Mom. Chef, Writer, & Psychic Medium. Chili oil obsessed. Trinidad & Barbados stand up.

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Change agent. Soca & rap junkie. BK Girl in Queens. Mom. Chef, Writer, & Psychic Medium. Chili oil obsessed. Trinidad & Barbados stand up.

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